A Good, Clean Cleansing

I forgot what it's like to feel this way. Everything feels more intense. There is something about a breakup that is so cleansing. It makes you dig deep inside yourself and bring all your stored criticisms to the surface. It's really self-constructive. Yes, you feel horrible about the situation, but you build yourself up because you know you did the best you could; there was nothing more you could do and you owe it to yourself to look in the mirror and say that no matter what other people think, you are an incredible person to yourself. I love who I have become in my 23 years of learning the world. So what if another person doesn't see it that way. He couldn't see how stellar I was and honestly, I feel sorry for him. It really is his loss. Someone else will be far more deserving. I'm tired of modesty. You really do only have one life to live and why spend it feeling like you are less than perfect? I say be happy with who you are... especially on those days when you really have something to be happy about. Today was great and I didn't need someone else in my life to convince me that it was. I told myself and I will continue to tell myself in the future. My senses feel like they have peaked. The wind brushed against my face in a different way today. Although I feel heightened pain in my heart, I can smile bigger knowing I made a huge achievement today and I earned it all by myself. Now being lonely isn't nearly as bad.