You're dead to me

i'm not sure what to think
i don't know what to do
if there is something there
and it's because of you
i may bow my head and cry
and curse your name in vain
i may never tell a soul
even when i'm feeling pain
should you have a right to know
what causes me this grief,
if you're the one that let me go
against my own belief?
i cannot say you betrayed
i cannot tell if you have lied
but know that my decision
could forever haunt you deep inside
even if i do not tell you
i hope somehow you feel my hurt
you are not worth all my tears
you're nothing more than dirt
so if i make the choice
to end what might be there
i know it's for the very best
because i know you wouldn't care
i would have to go it alone
thoughts of us would haunt my head
and the consequence would only know
that once you lived but now you're dead