It just occured to me that if you are as faithful as you seem, you could perhaps view all of this as some sort of test of your faith. In no way do I doubt your strength of mind. Maybe God did place me in your life as a temptress-- maybe I am meant to be like the snake that tempted Eve-- an instrument that only exists to make you more in touch with your faith. I would like to think that I have more of a purpose than that, but then again, I'm the one that doesn't believe. Maybe it is my punishment? Or maybe you exist to present faith to me? You see how I question everything? This is my nature. Although it would give me less of a headache (and get me to bed at a decent hour) to believe in something and stick to it, I just cannot do so because it does not feel right to me. I have always followed my heart (and I really do not think it has lead me astray yet) and my heart seems to get concerned whenever I try to accept beliefs such as yours. I'm torn though because my heart also tells me to let all this go because you seem a good match for me. But is it right to sacrifice what I value? After all, this is not something that can be avoided forever. I wish I knew the right answer. I wish my heart could have been made unbreakable. It feels as though it has been shattered.